FML...

Here was June....





lol from May 15-June 30 here is my pokerluckmeter stats...

	Total winnings -354.5 Big Blinds   Expected all-in winnings 1826.5 Big Blinds   Expected win rate 6.0 ± 2.8 Big Blinds/100 hands   Your luck was at 0% - The bottom 1% of worst possible luck.   Luck odds 1 : 271.4

im not good with this shit...can anyone translate this..i mean obv i ran like god right?


So sick this has to happen right when i start to seriously think about going full time...soul crushed...gotta bounce back i guess...peace

Decision time: Fulltime or not???

Since i have very few real life poker playing friends i want to get input, thoughts, and advice from you husngers and pros on this....

Let me lay it out for you:
I have 2 bachelor degrees..i was working as an assistant restaurant manager and began to HATE it, so my friend got me the job i am currently at now...the only reason i took it was just to get out of the restaurant bc i hated it so much, and was going to stay there until i finished my 2nd degree, well thats done now...i have been there for 2 years in August.  I make absolute shit for money $11.50/hr, and have not gotten a raise yet bc our company got sued so all raises have been frozen.  I discovered online poker in Jan 2009 and have worked my way up to the $100 husngs playing part time....i am really beginning to hate my current job, plus the pay is dick, and they are starting to pull and jerk me around...

Ok now the question should i go fulltime or not??  here are my stats at the 50 and 100 level so far

$50- 1,163 games played, $6/game, 11%roi

$100- 1,359 games played, $11/game, 10%roi

Right now i have about 13k in the bank and a 10.5k poker bankroll....for about the past 7 or 8 months i have made more in poker playing 200-250 games a month than i have at my job....some months only by a few hundred, some by 2k, and few by 4-5k.....if i go pro i plan on opening 2 more accounts with my bank 1 for tax money, and 1 for personal retirement money that i will deposit into every month... i just recently started 2 tabling, and obv hit a downswing so i really dont have a good sample at  tabling as of yet....

Please provide some insight on this for me...all comments are welcome....

also, to any pros regarding health insurance....how much is a personal health insurance plan if you get it on your own?? im healthy and havent been to the doctors in years...just wondering...

thanks a lot.

I am being mentally tested.

After the second half of last month and the first half of this month, poker is testing my mental.  I just cannot get anything going...every bluff gets picked off, card dead, coolers, set ups, and when i do get a monster the maniacs im playing snap fold...feels great.  So far this month i have played 173 games with a -3% roi, which a big difference from my usual 10-11%...i feel i have dealt with this run OK, not great or as well as i would like to be dealing with it.  I have tilted off a few buyins here and there, berated a decent amount, and feel i have went into auto pilot mode some of the times, which is not good in hu.  I have also let this bad run kind of put me in a bad mood outside of poker as well...i need to work on this...it doesnt happen too often, but i need to figure out how to control this better, so that im not constantly thinking about my recent results...because right now my confidence is close to being completely shot...

Anyway im setting a goal to not berate a single time the rest of the month...in reality me berating a fish and having them not respond just tilts me more, and its just stupid to do...like say after going off on a fish for making several bad plays..and i somehow end up winning and they type GG...it just makes me feel like shit knowing that they are down 20k, i just talked shit on them, they lost and still say gg...not cool, very unprofessional, and i need to fix this...other than that i would be happy with any profit this month...i guess on a positive note im on track for platinum star for the 2nd month in a row, so i guess that is a goal as well....

Time to turn this around..heres my June graph:

GL

MAY...

May was fucking annoying...although i did play 332 games, reaching my goal of 300, my profit was only 1.6k.  I played 277 $100s, 52 $50s, and went 2-0 in my first two 200s of my career.  The month started off well being up like 1.4k after my first 125 games, and that is pretty much where it stopped.  Over the next 25 games i had dropped all of that, and was back to 0 profit on the month.  Over the next 75 games i ran it up to 1.2k then back down in a matter of about 15 games...got back to 1.6k then broke even for the last 75 games of the month....so yeah fuck May...

Overall it felt like i didnt run well, and several days i loaded my HH's into pokermeterluck and my results were 0%.  F it though, it goes both ways and works out in the end, so looking too much into stuff like that is pointless, however it does provide some sense of relief/confirmation for me so whatever.

So far my lifetime results at the 100 level are:

Games played: 1,279
Profit per game: $12
ROI: 11%
Total profit: $14,705

Although i think that is getting to be an OK sample, i feel i might want to at least play 2k games at this level before moving up.  I told myself i wanted to get a legit sample at the 100s, because coming up through the levels i have never really done that...i think the most ive played at a level was like 500 games...well except the 50s which i still play when games are dead.  Enough about poker...waitin on a heaterrr

Memorial day weekend was pretty fun.  Friday night went to a camp fire and drank all night.  Saturday i had to go to a bday party with my gf, then went to a friends to watch the UFC fights.  I got into fly fishing about 3 years ago, but did not even get my license or fish 1 time last year, so i figured i would change that this year.  Earlier last week i got a new fly rod and reel, and Sunday i got my license and some other necessities.  My gf and I then headed to one of her grandparents houses that sits right on a world class trout stream.  Where i live we are surrounded my numerous world class streams, so i have kinda been into fishing my whole life.  Anyway, so we drank, fished, cooked some steaks on the grill, and just relaxed all day...i need to knock some rust off on my fly fishin game though....Monday i woke up and went golfing at 12:30 with some friends..it was hot as shit, but still good to get out...im working on a new swing so we will see how that works out...ok done rambling...peace